Goodbye for now, for ever?

The semester is over, for me at least. There are still people that have finals and most of my friends are leaving tomorrow with a few staying until later due to things like rehearsals and such. Just a few seconds ago as I fired up my laptop I realized "I'm about to leave.........for good" My heart sank as I realized the consequence of my academic demise. This usually happens to me, not fully realizing things until they are upon me. I won't be back here in the spring, and moreover there is no "next fall" to look forward to either. Even if there were, the people who I am closest to will have left by then. Man this sucks. Yes there is always "I told ya so"-"You saw this coming" and "well what did you think would happen?" but stow it for a second, I really just want lament this news. Iron and Wine is graduating this spring and her roommate "Lez" will be gone too.
They were the first people I hung out with when I came to University. I&W and I were mild acquaintances during high school and have become close throughout my time here. I'll miss them the most.

The three of us made a random trip to my hometown last night to get coffee. Yes that's right, we drove forty five minutes to pay for overpriced beverages. It was kind of spur of the moment as most of these trips are. During warmer weather our trips usually end up taking us to a large park the city and we spend time goofing off with "butt cups" and just swinging. But last night was just for coffee. Our college town shuts down at around 6 PM- lame right? However the "city" usually winds down at a less lame 10PM. We met up with a friend of Iron&Wine's and had a great time laughing and cutting up. (a point of much laughter was this story from a random web page. Warning it contains slightly explicit, sexual language and is not suitable for persons under 18-lolz- but really not kids stuff) I'm glad I got to hang with them, honestly they're great friends.

So yeah, I guess I shouldn't be to down seeing as I plan on visiting quite a bit, I guess it just won't be the same. No- not I guess but rather I know it won't. For a short time I contemplated talking a job here in my college town and staying with relatives that live close by. I&W was also concerned that I wouldn't be spiritually nurtured at home as I would be here, where I have friends and support. She's right about that. It would be feasible but from a financial standpoint the money wouldn't be what I could make if I stayed at home and worked at the sandwich shop. (FYI- worked there during high school and work there during holidays/ whenever I'm not at school pretty sweet gig @ $11 and Hr.) So IDK. Right now I just want to get through this year.

As I bring this post to a close, my dad just called. He told me that they got the email. "I ain't mad" he followed up with a laugh that was mixed with "IDK" and trying to not make me feel awkward. My mom hasn't read it yet so I still have that to hear about and then there's the coming out to them. I'm not sure how they will take it but I'm glad that I know them. Regardless of what some might presume about my parents, they're not crazy southern bigots. Though the next few months will be the hardest, I will do my part to maintain our relationship, no matter what.

I think a run is in order. Clearing my head with some bitterly cold exercise sounds good right about now. And with Scissor Sisters to accompany me, who could complain? :)
Can't embed the music video, so...here's a goofball lip syncing Enjoy.


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